Fanmix: The Once & Future Captain (Kirk, Kirk/McCoy for STBB)

[jactrades]

When I saw the summaries of the STBB fics, I crossed my fingers in the hopes of getting turtle_goose's The Once & Future Captain because I've had thoughts about mixing a Tarsus fic (mostly centered around track 12). Lucky me, I got the chance to create a mix for this story! :D I really enjoyed the clear thought that went into the world-building in this story, and if you're a sucker for Tarsus fics (like me), you shouldn't pass this one up.

Masterpost for the fic & gorgeous art here!




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Tracklist:

01| Circuital - My Morning Jacket

Well anyway you cut it

We're just spinning around

Out on the circuits

Over the hollow grounds

Out on the circuits

Over the hollow grounds

Heading right back in the same place

That we started out

02| Find It In Me - William Fitzsimmons

My conduct should be suspect and my

Intentions should be checked but I'm too

Involved in making plans for my soul

03| Add My Effort - The Weepies

When it's dark you say it is

Because there's no light

And though it's not I'll say it is

I'll say it's all right

04| Northern Skies - I Am Kloot

Where did you go on a big black night?

Did you take the coast road back through your life?

See the sand, the moon, the stars that shine the light

And say, well, they’ll do all right for me?

05| Lights (Shook Remix) - Ellie Goulding

'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home.

Calling, calling, calling home

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone

You shine it when I'm alone

06| Night Squall - Balmorhea 
[Instrumental]

07| Lippy Kids - Elbow

Do they know those days are golden?

Build a rocket boys

Build a rocket boys!

08| Easy - Real Estate

Around in the fields we grow

With love for everyone

Dreams we saw with eyes of hope

Until that dream was done

09| Fear - OneRepublic

When we were children we’d play

Out in the streets just dipped in fate

When we were children we’d say

That we don’t the meaning of

10| I Believe In Outer Space - The Lovers

They believe in an outer space 

That's what they believe in 

And right now and it's instant 

And it's far away and it's distant 

11| Running For Home - Matthew Good Band

When we were wired the world was like a secret

I close my eyes now and I scream

I turn the light on and there's nothing left redeeming

I saw your face before it changed

12| Dustbowl Dance - Mumford & Sons

I've been kicked off my land at the age of sixteen

And I have no idea where else my heart could have been

I placed all my trust at the foot of this hill

And now I am sure my heart can never be still

13| Pride Is A Lonely Blanket (When We Speak) - Red Wanting Blue
When we speak

But our words won't let us say so

And we wished we let it all show

We started falling apart

At the heart

We'll be broken 'til the end

14| Drifting - Andy McKee
[Instrumental]

15| The Problem Of Pain - William Fitzsimmons

Icarus they caught you where you tumbled on

Encourage you to dive now the sun is gone

I just don't know

I just don't know

16| Book Of Revelation - The Drums

And it's over now

You can pick yourself off the ground

Cause you're cool now

And you're nothing like him

17| Sea of Teeth - Sparklehorse

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil   

18| I'm With You - The Stills

The timing's right

And the light is soft

We've come from far

And we came here lost

19| All Or Nothing - Au Revoir Simone

You're a sight to see this early morning

Getting lost in my own neighborhood

The same freedom you feel

Is what's been blowing in my sail 

Since I arrived here

20| Welcome Home - Radical Face

I've come home, home, home, home.

All my nightmares escaped my head.

Bar the door, please don't let them in.

Comments

[got_swagger]

MY ~FEELINGS PART 2

Pride is a Lonely Blanket (When We Speak) fits for me so well with Jim's breakdown at Kodos's statue and his following heart-to-heart with Bones. It also seems fitting for Bones taking care of Jim back on ship that night. They want to get there, but just can't.

Drifting is a nifty little piece that put a smile on my face because it reminded me so much of the music from Firefly. And there's mischievous lean to it that I can totally hear playing while Jim is delighting in his friends' unsettled-ness because they have no idea what to expect from him. And it's great as the Enterprise makes its way back to Admiral Pike.

The Problem of Pain is interesting to me because I keep going back and forth in my head of where to place it. It fits but it's not necessary obvious to me like the rest of them are. I guess I just sort of keep it as Jim and Bones's understanding private accord with each other. And, I think, of Jim's thoughts and feelings after Pike unintentionally insults him. (And lyrically, it's GORGEOUS!) The Book of Revelation I LOVE. I can hear it beginning as Jim comes back to the Enterprise after his briefing and his friends are freaking the hell out because nothing is working out after Jim's defiance of protocol leads in nicely to Jim and Bone's come-to ('and I believe that when we die we die so let me love you tonight') wherein Bones is the one holding back for the good of them both. In addition, ('Cause you're cool now and you're nothing like him') strikes me as Jim's attitude towards Bones re: "I've forgiven you." Sea of Teeth which is such an introspective, contemplative number, I think would fit Jim's mood perfectly after Bones leaves.

I'm With You, for all that it can be interpreted romantically, really sort of works for me as the the crew coming stand by Jim and help him and Riley achieve the closure they need as they bury the dead on Tarsus. All Jim asked for was one day and his friends really came through, so I can play this song as a back and forth between them.

All or Nothing strikes me as a theme for Jim rediscovering his old neighborhood and really trying to see past all the horrors he faced as he reclaims bits and pieces of his old life and makes his final video detailing his time there and comes to realize that if he wants peace with his past, he has to accept it and not run from it. And as he comes to peace with it, he realizes his strength.

And finally, Welcome Home as Jim prepares to leave Tarsus IV and return to the Enterprise, casting away his fears and doubts, much like he did the first time he arrived on the planet as a boy. After everything he's gone through with the mission and the betrayal from his friends and starting to heal, he's "alive" again as he goes home.


LOL I may be completely off base here and maybe I was thinking to hard for some of these but seriously I adore this mix. I couldn't have asked for anything more perfect that this. I actually spilt it into 2 CDs of 10 songs and listen to them in my car. ♥

The work and thought you put into this is incredible and I love this mix so much. Thank you.

BTW, have you considered posting it to fanmix?

[jactrades]

:D Late response is late, but I've been randomly remembering this comment and smiling all week!

So, I put Pride is a Lonely Blanket in there just because it seemed so perfectly broken for what's happening in most of Part 5 of your fic - there's both Jim's difficulties and there's also the crew's feelings of uncertainty and not knowing how to handle or what to say about the things they've learned on Tarsus. And from a musical/instrumental perspective, it kept up the vaguely country/Americana sound that Mumford & Sons (yeah, I know, English band, but still, banjos) & Drifting have, so things hang together.

Drifting - I never thought of it in relation to Firefly, but you're right that it does have that vibe. :) I put it in there to signal the shift to After-Tarsus and because it has a sort of jaunty introspective feel to it - it's not trumpets blazing, but it does have more positive notes than the earlier songs.

Problem of Pain was the song I waffled on the most, actually - I knew I wanted something between Drifting and The Book of Revelation, but I couldn't quite find the right song for the longest time. I eventually went with this song because I think it carries on the uncertainty/uneasy feel that comes from Pride is a Lonely Blanket, but is musically a little more upbeat with the background vocals and light strumming. And the line "Icarus they caught you where you tumbled on/Encourage you to dive now the sun is gone" really feels like an encapsulation of Starfleet/Pike's perspective on Jim.

For me, The Book of Revelation is completely Jim & Bone's song, although the verses trade-off between the two. I guess it's just that "I love you" that Bones finally admits; it feels like, with that - and Tarsus - out in the open, their relationship really has a chance to go somewhere. And then Sea of Teeth is there to slow things down just a little bit as the Enterprise heads back to Tarsus - things still aren't completely out of the woods.

I'm With You is all about Jim & his crew - I think you got it perfectly. :D And with that final jump that everyone makes in trusting and helping Jim, I feel like the story moves into a happier place, so the final three songs reflect that, mood-wise. All or Nothing continues that mood, and, as you said, is about Jim finally at peace with his history on Tarsus... well, that and Welcome Home. Welcome Home was probably my best serendipitous find for this mix; I'd listened to the song a few times before, but only knew the general feel & lyrics to the chorus. Then I listened to it again when it came up randomly after I'd read you story and it was just perfect for the mood I wanted to leave the mix off on, both from a sound perspective & lyrical.

As I said before, I am so, so glad that this mix worked for you and that you like it so much. I'm rather inordinately fond of it as well. :D

I've thought about it, but I wasn't sure what their policy was regarding mixes linked to fics... But I suppose I might as well try posting it there!